This is the last Friday before we find out our bar exam results. They should be arriving by mail early next week. It is going to be a tense weekend in the Breck household! Thankfully we have lots of stuff to do around the house (cleaning, laundry, yard clean up) and a very cranky and physically able toddler to keep our minds distracted.
I have lowered my food intake - actually, I've gone back to the weight loss program that has worked for me in the past - Lindora. I did Lindora when I lived in Southern California and I lost around 40 pounds in 3 months. It was quick - and then I got a new boss I hated (actually I think she hated me more) and I promptly let the stress of my life allow me to gain it all back plus a few extra. Then I got pregnant at my max weight. Yes, my pregnancy was just a blast. I don't know how obese people get through life - it was really uncomfortable.
Once I had the kid, I took a few weeks to enjoy my son and indulge in holiday foods and then I did Lindora online for 10 weeks. I lost 20-25 pounds. Then I applied the same principles and lost another 15 on my own. I could have done that again this time but for some reason my motivation level has just not been very strong. So - I decided to sign up for another Lindora session. I know, I know I said no "gimmicks" when I started this blog but I really don't consider Lindora to be a gimmick at all. The diet is low calorie, low fat and low carb (basically, low food) but it works like a charm. Once I reach my goal weight, I will go back to the whole touchy feely getting in touch with my inner child crap but for now I just want to get the weight off so that I can enjoy summer and then promptly get knocked up.
I plan to weigh on Sunday morning so I will do a post then and put up more photos. Perhaps I will have managed to obtain a new sports bra by then... perhaps not. Check back to see my amazing progress.
As a side note - but it is actually very important for me to document - today I overcame a serious urge to self-sabotage. Without getting into all of the dramatic details of my life long history of addiction and self-abusive behaviors, I am proud to say that I was hit with a heavy duty urge today and thought about it for hours but through prayer, some distracting and inspirational reading, and by reaching out to another and admitting what what going on, I managed to move past it. Thanks for giving me the strength, God. It has been a long time since I've struggled and actually come out on top.