Weight loss and getting healthy always seems to be a "hurry" kind of thing for me. I get a little obsessive about the rate of my weight loss, a few ounces gained overnight, the fact that I'm not going to be "thin enough" by a date certain - that kind of stuff. So when I started this time, I began down that same path but whoooaaa - It seems I am playing a different game this time.
Talk about SLOW. I think my metabolism has been smothered in a high-viscosity molasses that has gunked up the cogs so much that it seems I might lose a pound every couple weeks. Or maybe I am just 43 and shit is slowing down. I never really believed that whole "as you age it gets harder to lose weight" thing but uh, I'm believing it now. Seriously, this has been a real wake up call to me. And of course, it pisses me off because I am not being instantly gratified.
But this maddening development has forced me to accept the process for what it really is - It is a lifestyle change, not a diet. I am not just going to lose 40 pounds and then go back to my old patterns. I am changing the way I operate on a daily basis.
It is also forcing me to realize that every choice I make today, no matter how small, will determine where I am in the future, say, one year from now. Sure, I could get mad and throw in the towel because "all this hard work isn't paying off" or "why bother, it's not making a difference, anyway." But that is just stupid when I stop to consider the long term health effects of what I'm doing, rather than short term gratuituous pay offs of "looking better" or fitting into my thin clothes. I know in my heart that if I continue doing what I am doing, every day, without giving up, I will be far better off in 365 days than I am today. It is a FACT.
So for now, I'm sticking to it. I am ignoring the naysayers and the negative people. (Tell me, why is it that totally overweight, out of shape people think they have a right to advise me on what they believe to be the flaws in my diet? WHY?) I am committed to my way of healthy eating because HEY all you uninformed, self-appointed critics - I have lost 8 pounds and several inches in 3 weeks - I must be doing something right, huh? I am just sticking with what I know, based on my personal experience with my own body, what works for me. And it IS working. It's just slow.
I shall be the turtle, not the hare, in this race to save my life and my sagging ass. Today, I am accepting that I am a damned turtle and though it is incredibly frustrating at times, if I stay on course, I can be absolutely certain that I am going to WIN in the end. Others may blow by me in this race but I really can't get distracted by that. As long as I stay the course, I am winning. GO TURTLES!! And remember....